Speakman's Book

Got the book by the 'Speakmans' today, okay so I don'y normally go for those books that claim to change your life, but after seeing them cure phobias on 'This Morning' I thought it was worth a go and they also appear to have a lot of experience of life coaching and CBT.  Will let you know what it's like, who knows maybe it will change my life.

Going to touch my baby's hand!

I have decided to start to push past my comfort zones and increase my exposure to OCD issues.  Today I am going to let the cat in for a while (she's been living in the shed since the baby came) and I am going to touch my daughters hand.  I haven't touched her hand since she was born (don't worry I still cuddle her, play with her and pick her up) It's just that I have cuts on my hands from washing them too much, so the skin dries out and spilts and I am scared of giving her AIDS if I touch her hand and she then puts it in her mouth.
Will do it today! I am actually looking foward to it!

I no longer have OCD.

I have decided to no longer have OCD (easier said than done).  It upset me the other day when my husband told me he thinks he will be dead by the time he is 50.  He claims it's not all the stress I put him under but I think differently, so that's it!   I am no longer going to have OCD!

I am worried about things poisoning my loved ones but ironically I am probably more likely to send them off early through stress!

So when my husband wanted to take the baby off to his Granny's farm, I really did not want her to go, I said yes.  There was one condition, he had to take the cot.  He was orignally talking about them both sleeping in the bed!  I don't think this was a lot to ask.  Rang them this morning and they are both still alive, just glad I wasn't there to witness all the muck, not to mention the dirt and dust in the house.  Looking foward to seeing them both later, I think this was a good move foward.